I See Your Smile

I am with you. 

Smile is all I can

do. 

Nobody must know

  

that sometimes we go.

I am with you. 

Just to be near you

sometimes is more than

I can bear. 

Under eyelids I watch you.

I remember us. 

I remember your touch. 

I feel your stare. 

I look up and see you there. 

No one must know.

I must not stare. 

I close my eyes instead. 

I am happy. 

I feel joy. 

I hear your laugh.

I see your smile. 

I remember your kiss. 

I pretend you barely 

exist. 

If they only knew

what we do.  

Behind closed doors. 

When no one is around. 

When you saying my name

is the only sound.

Here I sit trying not to stare. 

Did we really dare? 

To mock the rules we both 

could no longer bear? 

Yes.

We did. 

And we will do it again. 

To them we are 

barely friends. 

To be alone with you again I wonder when.